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I've been having a roller coaster of a few weeks. I'm hanging in there. Everytime I have a gush I freak out all over again.(Last one was Wednesday, July 25th.) I've now trained myself that whenever I have nasty thoughts that I just say over and over again "healing the hematoma, healthy baby" and imagine my little subchorionic bleed getting smaller. I guess it may be working because it is just a tad smaller and I haven't had a gush in a week. Shhhh, don't tell anyone and YES I'm knocking on wood as I type.

The doc finally tracked down my progesterone numbers. They were the same in my original OB panel as they were a week and a half later in the ER. 9.something. (Norms are 11-90?) She went ahead and put me on progesterone. They are the oral pills, but I get to shove them up the old hoo-ha! The most action I've seen in MANY days. No sex dontcha know? Urg. She said she likes them better than the gels and to tell the pharmacist that YES, the directions are right if they have any questions.

I am scheduled for weekly ultrasounds. I'm guessing this is until the bleed gets significantly smaller. She did say if I go another week without red blood, that I can get off of pelvic rest. I'm on modified when not actively bleeding red. I just limit everything and try not to bend down or squat. IE - I do ONE load of laundry a day OR the dishes but have hubby put it from washer to dryer and dryer to basket, and help with anything in the dishwasher I can't reach without bending down.

Yesterday's ultrasound had the baby measuring at 9w0d (YIKES was expecting 8w2d) and the sac is still measuring small at 7w2d but it did grow from the Wednesday before measurements of baby 7w3d and sac 6w4d. The doc didn't seem too concerned since the numbers are growing. Those ultrasounds were 6 days apart. The baby's heart rate is now up to 176!! If I'm reading my literature correctly it will soon top out near 190?

I'm still very cautiously optimistic here.... Trying to hang in there. I believe I had my first full blown mood swing last night. Hubby vacuumed because we have an insurance physical in the house today. He did vacuum, but kinda wondered off after that. I know he's had enough just like me. I just can't do anything alone and I am used to doing it ALL as far as the house is concerned.

Thanks for listening and letting me vent... Ya'll have a good day! I'm off to create my PB&J site for class, then FINALLY start Harry Potter! :)

So, I had pretty heavy bleeding with clots yesterday from 6-10. I went to the ER around 7. I called the service and the OB's nurse was still in. I am considered a patient now that I have appointments with them. I actually had a 1pm yesterday with the educator.

I was scared and thought it was the end. The ER was not really helpful. They did some blood work and double checked to make sure my cervix was still closed, and it was. Then they discharged me without telling me SHIT. I knew my cervix was closed but had no idea where the baby stood.

My OB called me right after we got home. She had come to the ER looking for me because she was on call and just finished up a surgery. We had already gone. She apologized for missing us and said she would have gladly done the ultrasound right there for us.

Since I already had an ultrasound and an OB appointment in the morning she said to kick back and relax and she'd see me in the morning. If the bleeding got worse, to call her referral line because she would be around.

I spent the night thinking I had lost the baby. I cried off and on. I was on an emotional roller coaster. I got up and took a quick shower and made my way to the appointment. She put the wand in and found the sack right away. I could see the baby but no flicker of a heart. Then, there it was. It seemed slow to me, but it had actually picked up to 136. She notated that I was 6 weeks and 3 days growth wise and the sack measured 6 weeks 2 days. You want those numbers to be close but they don't have to be exactly the same. I didn't know what to do with myself. I really thought it was over. She then showed me a pocket of blood that was between the sack and my uterus. There's a good part of the sack touch my placenta/uterus but there is some blood to the right. This is what's been bleeding off. She said it was a small to medium patch and they don't worry too much unless they are larger and cause the sack to have less touching with the placenta/uterus.

I cried. I thought I was only gonna cry if the news was bad, but I cried even when the news was good.

I saw the OB a bit later. She seemed VERY excited about the ultrasound. I think from our conversation last night that she thought it was going to be a bad appointment. She reminded us no sex (We're beginning to think we're bunnies! Yeesh everyone keeps on saying that.) and I can bend and squat as long as I'm not actively bleeding. I'm supposed to call if it gets heavy or if I cramp, but she's expecting more blood because of the patch that's there. I have another ultrasound on July 31. I can drive which is nice, but I'm still supposed to be taking it easy. I didn't specifically ask about exercise but I don't think it's okay yet... I'm hoping to get the okay at the end of July.

This kid is gonna give me heart failure. Grrrr. I thought pregnancy was supposed to be this beautiful thing. I call BULLSHIT!

The OB's office seems GREAT! I am excited to be working with them. I hope I will be for the next 9 months!

I had a bright red gush yesterday afternoon.  There was some slight tissue looking stuff in it, but it looked like normal period stuff.  I was heart broken and just trudged out to my Dad's birthday dinner anyway.  I just knew it was over.  I hadn't told anyone in my family for this reason, so I put on a stiff upper lip and headed to Outback.

After getting home, Hubby suggested calling the OB even though I hadn't seen her yet.  The after hours line wouldn't do anything for me with the OB because I wasn't her patient, technically.  She was also the after hours line for my family doc, so they sent a message to the doc on call with that practice.  I, of course, was sobbing as she told me to go to the ER even though I wasn't cramping or in pain.   I remember 
'threatened miscarriage' and 'bedrest' and at some point she said they would check on 'the product of conception'. I'm sure she just wanted to steer clear of the baby word.  I found 'product of conception' rather odd and funny.  She asked me if I was okay, and my answer was "My husband is here, I'll be okay".  She asked if I wanted her to talk to him, and I said sure.   I knew I wasn't going to remember much of the conversation.

After 4 hours in the ER, a pelvic exam, a catheter urine sample, an 'outty' and an 'inny' ultrasound.....  They think I am okay.  My hcg is 13,168.  I saw the little flickering heartbeat (She said it was 124) and the egg sac/yolk .  She said that I was measuring exactly 6 weeks and told me my EDD was March 9th.  How this little grain of rice can cause me such heartache ALREADY, I will never know.

I'm on pelvic rest until I see my OB on Thursday.  She'll decide where to go from there.  No bending, or squatting or lifting over 24 pounds.  I feel bad for hubby.

My blood pressure was crazy when I checked in.  She used an automated, on my forearm and got 185/85.  Later on the nurse, who was great, found a large cuff.  She said they are kinda stupid because the automated ones don't work on anyone who has ANY contours to their arm.  This includes MUSCLES!  She took it right before I left and I was at 145/82.  Seems a lot better, and I had been on half dose for the past 3 days of my BP 
meds, and JUST took 1 dose for the day of the new stuff.  I still had the second dose to take.  She didn't seem to be that concerned.

I was really sad at one point because I got up to go to the bathroom and noticed redish stuff all over the pad they put under me.  I thought I had had another gush.  It turns out, she forgot to tell me she was rubbing me down with iodine!!  I teased her about it mercilessly.

The ultrasound tech was pushing REALLY hard externally.  I could feel it grinding on my pelvic bone.  The internal wasn't that comfortable either.  I'm glad she had me go pee, because even immediately after doing so, once she started poking around, I felt the urge again!  I guess this is a whole slew of firsts for me, and there are probably a whole lot more waiting for me in the next 9 months.